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Finding Our Way Series Collection

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Pieces of Us

Jesse is an average teenage boy making his way through living in 1988 with the help of his best friend, a girl named Dylan.

Read My Story…

As I share my experiences in "Tormented Discovery" with my best friend Ryan who continues the story in "Drifting."


TIM is being bullied. ERIC is frustrated with life. DELSIN is gay and ready to come out.

Tuesday, December 31, 2013

With each passing year, it seems as if time passes by quicker.  This past year has gone by in a blur and as I am sitting here with a cup of coffee attempting to wake up and reflecting, it has been a great year.

For me as an author, I published Tormented Discovery at the first of the year.  The book was received well, gaining several reviews within a couple months of release.  Hayden quickly became many reader's favorite character, as seen by all the fan mail he generated ranging from how much people adored him to speculating about Ryan and him in the future.  Although I have disappointed several people by not having any further books planned with him, I must reiterate that I never know what ideas will pop into my head.  About six months later I published Drifting, a book I had long wanted to write and share with the world.  The story itself had several elements I have never seen in any other book within the M/M genre at any age.  Anyone who has read this book has loved it and has had nothing but praise for it.  I was delighted to take readers through a gay relationship that has well past the "honeymoon phase" and explore what happens when two people who have be so important to each other are struggling with whether or not to work it out or call it quits.  Ian was a character I was glad to be able to share with readers and hope that those who think to be gay means to be sexy and thin realize gays come in all shapes and sizes.  Ryan has been adored by many and from what I have gathered the readers are forgiving me for how things played out with him and Hayden.   I wish that I could gain more readers beyond those who have read the previous books in the series.  There have been many times I have thought about publishing the book under a different title in order to gain more readers.  Every time I get to thinking about it, I spend hours thinking about how I could rework it to release it as an individual book. 

As in regards to social media, I've hit several milestones.  My website, where this blog is located went through a major overhaul (and I hope to make some more changes over the next couple of months), improving the site immensely.   Traffic to my website went from 1545 visitors as of January 14, 2013 to 33076 as of this moment.  After creating my Facebook author page I hoped to reach 300 likes by the end of the year, as of today I have 525 Likes.  My own Facebook page went from having 324 friends to gaining another 401.  Twitter is something I feel I am horrible with, I have managed to get 377 followers.

In my personal life... Cooper, Cooper, Cooper!  Anyone who knows me, knows it does not take much to get me to talk about my doghter (dog daughter), who has enriched my life so much.  She is growing up to be such a wonderful dog.  I've been so glad that my friends have appreciated my posting pictures of her.  I've been fortunate enough to take several trips, many of them to the coast.  I have had fun in Westport, Long Beach, Seaside, New Port, Cannon Beach, Lincoln Beach, Warrington, Astoria and others in between as well as the ones in California I cannot recall the names of.  I must mention again how Crater Lake was breath-taking!  Most recently I got to see The Goonies house in person, a favorite of mine since I was a kid (and I'll leave it at that).

Life has been such a whirlwind since even before my vacation has started.  I must be going. 

Happy New Year to you!  Thank you for your continued support!

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Guest Blogger = TM Smith

TM Smith top 10 LGBT YA books (and one movie)

This is in no particular order as I couldn’t tell you hands down which is my favorite, although I do have a strong bond with Alec and Magnus! All these books are fantastic in their own way. Raw, original, gritty, dark, desperate, fulfilling and accurate. That is how I would describe them. All of these books have either a HEA or a HFN and they are all teenager friendly. These books will make you laugh, cry, scream at your kindle and then jump for joy. I hope if you haven’t read them all, you will.

*Not Broken, Just Bent by Mia Kerick


*The Sweet Revenge of Celia Door by Karen Finneyfrock


*The Leech series by James Crawford

{Caleo book 1, Jack book 2, and Nolan book 3 coming soon}


*The Finding Our Way series by Jayson James

{Finding Our Way book 1, Tormented Discovery book 2, Drifting book 3}


*Waiting for Forever series by Jamie Mayfield

{Choices book 1, Destiny book 2, Determination book 3}


*A Broken Kind of Life by Jamie Mayfield


*Dumb Jock the Musical by Jeff Erno


*By the Creek by Geoff Laughton


*You Belong With Me by Jeff Erno


*The Mortal Instruments series by Cassandra Claire


And as an added bonus I am going to list my new favorite LGBTQ family friendly movie. White Frog which stars Boo Boo Stewart (Seth in Twilight) shows the viewer what life is like through the eyes of a young man with Asperger’s Syndrome. His rock in life is his older brother Chaz, who is killed in an accident, sending young Nick into a tailspin and tearing apart his already fragile family. When he and his slightly homophobic family learn that Chaz was gay, will they ever be able to pick up the pieces of their shattered lives?


Such a well written, acted and expressed film. Love, loss, ignorance and finally.. hope. It’s streaming on Netflix so if you subscribe, I recommend you watch this one. Have Kleenex close by though, you will need them.


Thank you so much Jayson for jumping on the blog tour bus for The Library, and hosting me on your blog today. To everyone else, go buy my books! Just kidding………. Maybe. ;-)

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Tuesday, December 10, 2013

Hijacking Jayson James' Blog -- Welcome, Nerd Alert Book Love Blog Hop!

“Ha!  Ha!  We did it!”

“So we hijacked Jayson James' Blog.” I said back. “What are we going to write about?”

“Anything we want.  We just need to get it written and posted quick.”

I shrugged, “I don’t know what to write about.”

“Derrick Wilson, think people will enjoy whatever we write.”  Justin Parker, my boyfriend, bobbed his eyebrows at me while sitting next to me on the bed.  This was something that always gets me. 

“Extraordinary.  My extraordinary boyfriend.”  Looking over at Justin, he was grinning. 

I shook my head in disagreement, “Although it is true, I am not going to put that.” 

He insisted, “Come on!  Why not?”

“It’s gay.” I bit my lip.

His jaw dropped.  His silence was brief, “We are gay.”

We both started to cackle and laughed ourselves into hysterics, nearly knocking my laptop onto the floor.  

“All right!  Time to get our shit together.”  Justin so eloquently put it.  “Time to get our asses in gear.”

I put my hand up, signaling him to stop, “Whoa!  You cannot talk like that here.”

“What?  Why the fu…“  Justin was silenced with my pointer finger being gently pressed on his lips.  He scowled at me.  I removed my finger and he was talking again, “Okay!  Down to business here.”  He grinned at me, “Then we can…”

It only took a scowl to silence him.  I winked at him and nodded my head in agreement.  That was all he needed.  I suggested, “Let’s talk about the books, Jayson and upcoming projects.”

Justin grinned, “Great idea!”

“Then why don’t you start us off?”

Finding Our Way is the first book.  When it was written there was no thought given to writing a series.  It was our story of two best of friends who discover during their junior year that they are both gay and in love with each other.”  Justin was on a role, “Next came Tormented Discovery, which was going to be written and shelved until after the release of several other books.  Although there were some loose ends left in the first book, the thought was the book could wait.  By this time, readers were reading and asking for more.  The decision was made to publish book two and then move onto another book.  There were concerns about being pigeonholed or being thought of as a one trick pony.”  He took a quick breath, “The idea for Drifting was already bubbling over and had to be written out.  The idea of two boyfriends past the honeymoon phase and thinking it might be time to call it quits is something rarely seen in M/M books.  The story itself was one that had long been waiting to be told.  It seemed to be a great way to end off the series.  Thus, a series was written.  Readers have fallen in love with the characters and are still asking for more.”

He looked to me.  It caught me off guard for a moment and then I had an idea, “In works is a book with Tyson and Tyler Hensley, the twins.  A couple of years ago, Jayson James started writing a book with these two in it.  The story takes place in Tyson and Tyler’s middle school years, prior to meeting Justin and myself.  It will be filled with lots of antics from the twins and I am sure will have plenty of laughs.”

Justin was ready to speak, “Prior to that, will be the release of TED.  TED is the story of Tim, Eric and Delsin.  Tim is kid that is trying his best to survive high school, which would be easier if he was not constantly being bullied.  Eric is the resident tough guy, with many secrets to hide from being who is to being bullied himself.  Delsin knows he’s gay, but he’s not ready for his family, friends or anyone else to know.  Please be sure to comment on this post for a chance to win an ARC of TED.”

I looked at Justin, unsure of what to say.   He grinned, picking up a book and holding up a dollar bill next to it.  Then it clicked for me, “If you have not read any of our books, be sure to pick up the Finding Our Way Series Collection available for a limited time.  You can purchase it on Amazon by clicking on any of the titles or by going to Smashwords.  It is like buying two books and getting the third free.”

Justin put his head on my shoulder.  I put my head on his.  We sat for a moment before Justin reached over and put his hand on my leg.  I in turn put my hand on his.  He turned towards me and moved his face close to mine.

“Oh, no!”

“Oh, yes!”

Sunday, December 8, 2013

QTA Christmas Blog Hop Featuring Jayson James

What Christmas Means to Me

When I was initially approached about doing this blog hop, I was excited, being like most authors, the chance for some additional attention was something I could not pass up.  Then I saw that I was going to have to write about Christmas, even worse being what it means to me, then the trouble ensued.  I spent a couple of days wracking my brain on what I could write about, without coming up with anything.  Then I forgot about it, until an email arrived reminding me of my participating.

Beyond the birth of Jesus and everything I grew up learning, Christmas to me is about family and friends.  It is the time of year where we take the time to care and share with each other.   As I sit here, I think about how everything l enjoy with Christmas centers around, food, activities and socializing.  Some of the finer highpoints are going to look at Christmas lights, various meals and assorted gift exchanges.   It is nice to take time to spend with family and friends.

Over the years, my family and I have been working on getting back into celebrating.  A few years ago, we decided to skip Christmas, instead taking a trip down to California, hitting Universal Studios, Disneyland, Sea World and everything else we could find the time to see.   It was so nice to take a break from the craziness of the holiday season and we liked it so much, years later we still have not gotten back into the whole routine.

This year is going to be extra fun, with it being my puppy’s first Christmas.  Having a puppy is very much like having a kid, or so I imagine.  There is the excitement and curiosity.  She is fascinated about everything, which in turn gets me excited.   As with Thanksgiving there will be food and I saw how she enjoyed the many foods we had to enjoy, with Christmas there will be many more.

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Thursday, November 14, 2013

Head in the Clouds

I snapped this picture today on my phone coming back from a lunch meeting.  I thought it was cool seeing the sky being split between sunny and stormy, something I do not see all too often.  The picture I took did not do it justice.  After I took it, I came to the realization that this has been like me over the past couple of weeks, or so I think, walking along with my head in the clouds.  Just kidding!  I've been feeling both accomplished and frustrated.  I've been getting some things done that I would like to do, but not able to get to other things.  Everything in my life seems to be like this right now.  I suppose I should be happy that I am content, yet I know it only takes a slight nudge to move content to discontent.  Although this is all I had to write about, I thought the picture itself was worthy of the entry.

Saturday, November 9, 2013

Finding Our Way Series Collection - Smashwords Release


After receiving several requests from readers who get their books on Smashwords and want to read my books, I have decided to release the Finding Our Way Series Collection early.  Know there are more people out there who want to read my books, I could not wait to release.  It can be purchased on Smashwords as of now by clicking on the cover art or Smashwords on this post.

Unlike with Amazon, I plan on leaving the series collection up for sale on Smashwords.  The cover will be the only difference, being this is the original cover design I was going to go with.  The limited version that will release on Amazon will not have the book titles next to the pictures on the cover and the title will include the word "collection."

Friday, November 1, 2013

An Update And Some Exciting News

Although I would be delighted to have my new book out by Christmas, it is not going to happen.  All that are involved with the book, including myself have been too bogged down to keep up with all that it takes to ready a book for publication.  For over a month I have had an idea of what I want to do for the cover art, yet I have done very little work on it.  With the holiday fast approaching I decided that it would be better to take it easy and work on the new book as time allows.

Since I am being honest, I suppose I will share that I have not even been writing.  I'm not sure if I needed a break or if I'm not in the mood.  I figure since all the work I have been doing over the last year, that I was not going to stress over taking a break.  That being said, I have planned most of my weekend to working creatively.  Currently, I plan on doing some drawing (with hopes of getting my idea for cover art onto the paper).

I've been doing a whole bunch of reading from a wide range.  I have read a couple fellow Indy authors works, as well as some popular titles.  So far I have truly enjoyed everything I have read.  Now, I need to get on the stick and write some reviews. 

My brother introduced me to Game of Thrones.  Although I have enjoyed the books, I have to admit that I enjoy watching the series more.  However, I did buy the first four books and I am working on reading through them.  I finished the first book and I am about a third of the way through the second.  The good thing about reading the books is now I know the characters names as well as additional details left out of the series.  It is cool being able to talk with my brother and dad about them.  It feels like it has been awhile since I have had a common interest such as this with either of them.

Some good news!  Well of sorts.  I've had a couple of people ask me if I was ever going to put out a collection of Finding Our Way, Tormented Discovery and Drifting.  As of Monday I decided that I would in fact put out a collection of all three books.  They will be released as The Finding Our Way Series and will contain all three complete books sold together for a discount price of buying them separately.   This will go on sale for a limited time, beginning Black Friday and will continue until some time in January (depending on the interest).

Tuesday, October 22, 2013


Over the last couple of weeks, I’ve ended up taking a bit of a break from writing and drawing.  For quite some time I have wanted to get back into reading.  When I upgraded my Kindle Fire to a Kindle Fire HD 8.9” I made myself a promise I was going to do some more reading.  This has been a promise I have kept.  I have been reading through my pile of books, most of which I had been planning on reading for over a year with a few other’s here and there I have found interesting.
What I love best about my new Kindle is it does something I have wished for as long as I can remember.  There are times when I am reading a book and want to listen to it while driving in my car.  Now I can had the Kindle read it to me when I am unable to read myself.  It is an option that I am glad I have.  I used to get the audio book of something I was reading, but it would take me forever to find where I was at either listening or reading and it would be annoying.  Or I would start listening to a book and read a different one, and then I would mix up the storylines.
The new book is still in the editing process.  When I get it back, I plan to add in some stuff that I meant to include when I was writing, along with going through to see what changes have been made.  As far as the cover art, I have an idea in my head what I want it to be like, but I have been lacking the motivation to work on it.  Drawing is something that comes and goes with me.  Usually I get the cover rolling while the editing is being done.  This book, has been so different, being it is still without a title and perhaps will be done being edited by the time I start on the cover.
I hurt my foot this past weekend, so much to the puppy and my disappointment we have not been walking.  I am looking forward to not having to keep my foot elevated and be able to get out and walk with her.   She has been so good, sticking by me as I have been pretty much stuck in bed over the last couple of days.   She is such a smart, sweet little girl.  I have been glad that the black interior, mainly the leather seats have not been damaged being I have been taking her just about everywhere I go.
Then there is my new addiction, something I am not sure if I should be putting out there just yet.  My brother introduced me to Game of Thrones.  I watched the first season twice while being stuck in bed.  He brought me the second season last night, which I stayed up until I could not keep my eyes open watching.  I keep getting told I need to read the books, to which I plan on doing, but not anytime soon.  I need to taper off my reading and get back to being an author!
Speaking of which I have been outlining my new work in progress, a book I had an idea a couple years ago and never ended up writing.   For years, I have been adding ideas to the file with it, planning on writing the book someday.  When I told my editor about it, she practically begged me to write it next.  I told her that I would look through my notes and see.  It looks like I will finally be writing this book. 

Sunday, October 13, 2013

Guest Blogger: T.M. Smith

Title: Opposites
Series: Opposites

Release Date: June 1st 2013

Author:  T.M. Smith

Genre: New Adult Dystopian (M/M F/F M/F)

Length: 153 pages

Publisher: TamsTwoCentsPublishing


Blurb: In the year 2081 our planet survived global warming of an apocalyptic scale. When the dust settled and the water receded Dr. Anthony Smith, one of only a few hundred survivors of GWI, started society anew. Having come to the conclusion that injudicious breeding played a huge role in the destruction of Earth as we knew it in the twenty first century, he worked closely with other survivors to isolate the Dionysus gene. This gene has the ability to manipulate human DNA to ensure that all male children be born gay, and all female children be born lesbians. A new society is born.

In the year 2300 Dr. Smith’s descendants are ushering in the twenty fourth century having maintained control of the government that still rules society. Twins Aiya and Aiyan are preparing to meet their matches and take control of House Gaeland, the current ruling House. But not everything is as it seems.

Love is Love.. it knows no gender and doesn’t conform to restrictions and boundaries. Aiyan has found his soul mate in Kaden, the prince of House Devi that he is matched with and eventually marries. But when the person Aiya falls in love with tests the boundaries put in place after GWI, all hell breaks loose. And in the midst of one secret unraveling, another will emerge. There is a growing anomaly that threatens to destroy over two hundred years of progression. This anomaly is known as Opposites.

*WARNING* Opposites is a majorly M/M New Adult novel that contains explicit sexual content and relationships between gay, lesbian and straight couples.


Buy Link Smashwords: https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/321969

Author Blog: http://tamssbookblog.blogspot.com

Author Twitter”  @tammystwocents1

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

The Writing Is Done, Now What?

I finished writing TED last week.  This is the first time I have completely written a novel without it getting a title before completion.  The title itself has been a thorn in my side since I started writing.  I decided to not let it detour me from writing and like my other books, a title would come to me.  When it did not happen by the time I reached the halfway point of the book, I ended up taking a break from writing.  Then I attempted to start back up on writing again, not having a title was bugging me so much that I was not able to write.  A few months later the story that was in my head and I had an overwhelming urge to write, kept on sticking in my head.

The novel has come out great!  I am quite happy with how the ideas went from my head onto the page.  I am looking forward to the publication of a book that is not part of a series.  Don’t get me wrong, I adore my series.  The characters are a part of me and ones that I look forward to writing with again.  Right now I want to publish a few books with other characters.  Currently all my writing ideas all have characters in Chandler.

Up until today, only a few people even know that I finished TED.  Typically I would be elated, yet I am feeling glad that I completed it and overwhelmed with the idea of drawing an image for the cover.  I have another idea for a book, something I started a few years back and I have meant to get back to writing and finish.  If my editor has her way, this will be my next book.  Over the next few days I am going to take a look at the story and see if it inspires (more than just thinking about it).

My walks with my puppy have been good in many ways.  It has given me time to get the puppy and myself much needed exercise.  We also get to spend time together – she is great company and quite a character.  I also get time to think and work out ideas in my head.  Of course I was supposed to be thinking about cover artwork the other night and found myself thinking about what I wanted to draw for a cover of a book I have not written yet.  Such is how my mind works I suppose.  The puppy likes the water, so she is more than willing to brave the constant downpour of rain Washington has been seeing over the last couple of days.  Our current plan is to keep on getting out walking regardless the weather.  I have to admit it is doing wonders for my creativity!

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

“Finding Our Way” Celebrating A Year of Publication

“You tell it from your perspective. Then I will tell it from mine.” 


Justin Parker and Derrick Wilson have been the best of friends since meeting back in middle school. Both of them are now in their junior year at Chandler High School, and are living the good life as teenagers. They have great girlfriends, plenty of close friends, their own cars, and parents who are well off. As nice as things might look to an outsider, something is missing from both of their lives.

Justin and Derrick both take turns narrating the story of their junior year in high school and all of the events that take place in each of their lives. Being a teenager can be tough. Being gay can be tougher. For Derrick and Justin they are both, and life cannot get any more complicated.


It has been a year now since I published my debut novel Finding Our Way that brought about two follow-up novels throughout the next year.  Below are the questions I’ve been asked by my readers and my responses to them.



How did Finding Our Way come to be?

The story itself was an idea I’ve had for years, but was never able to figure out how to write it.  I thought it would be boring told from one characters perspective and never even given any thought to telling it from both of their point of view.  I wrote the part with Derrick and Janie at the burger place after having a similar experience myself.  This was actually the first part of the book that I wrote.  I had imagined myself being younger and having an encounter with this guy who would later become Brad.  I wrote  a couple of pages and saved them to my desktop.  A month later, I had an idea about this guy being the same age as Brad, checking of him out and feeling conflicted about a drunken episode with his best friend.  The biggest struggle I had when I first started the book was that I hated how the story unfolded in third person, yet I didn’t feel it worked being told by only one of the characters.  I struggled with this for over a week and almost abandoned the idea.  Then one morning I woke up with the idea of Justin and Derrick telling their story together.  Once I had this figured out, the ideas flowed.  I shared my ideas with a friend, ironing out the details, she in turn would insist I write it and I would.   As the weeks wore on, I realized that I was writing a book and not a story as I had planned.  Next thing I knew I had finished the book, another friend read it and loved it enough to edit and convince me to publish it.  I am so glad that I did all of it, rather than just thinking about doing it.


Who was your favorite character in Finding Our Way to write, and why?

Justin Parker is my favorite character.  Although I do not believe, I realized it when I was writing him.  He is a flawed, but a lovable character.  One of my favorite things about him is he is a handsome, outgoing guy who could have any good-looking guy he wanted, but he chooses to be with this guy who he knows is beautiful on the inside and has spent years bonding with. 



Derek and Justin’s home lives are very different, one coming from a stable family, while the other’s parents are on the brink of divorce. Which is closest to your own experience growing up?

Justin’s home life was my own, without the alcohol.  The Thanksgiving Justin experienced was one of the more mild dysfunctional holidays I experienced at his age.  Much too often the stress was so bad, I’d come close to snapping, and things were on the verge of hitting a point of no return.  Yet somehow, I overcame.  To this day, I still struggle when it comes to the holidays, although things have gotten much better. 



What is the balance between reality and fantasy with the characters Justin and Derrick?

Most of Justin and Derrick’s story has been made up based upon my own life experiences.  Sure there are some of their story that is true, but I will never tell what parts are.  Those who know me, know what is true and what is made up.   I have always tried to keep the characters based in reality.  Though there is a story (a dream Justin has) where Derrick and he have super powers.  I have notes written here and there, but nothing in the works beyond what I think would only be a short story.


Will Tyler and Tyson have a book of their own?  How about Hayden and Ryan?

Yes, though I am not sure how soon it will be finished.  I started a book with Tyler and Tyson several years ago, but it soon became a project I abandoned.  When I started writing Finding Our Way I knew I wanted to use these two as friends of Derrick and Justin.  My editor and friends I have told about the story, have all expressed how much they would love to see this be one of my upcoming projects I finish.


As far as Hayden and Ryan, they were characters in a book I started a couple of years back.  Much of that book I used in Tormented Discovery.  Though they are a favorite of many of my readers, I do not have any current plans for a book featuring the two of them.


Are there plans for a final chapter in their (Justin and Derrick) story?  Wedding, children, happily ever after?

Oh!  The proverbial burning question, I’ve managed to dodge.  To be honest, I would like to write at least one more story with Derrick and Justin as the main characters.  I’ve recently run a couple of ideas by my friend and editor.  She agrees with my feeling that I would like to put out at least one book that is not part of the series.  As one keen reader has noted, Finding Our Way was book 1 and then Tormented Discovery was released as book 2 in the series, while Drifting was released as a story in itself.  Keep a watch out, because I can tell you that I have not written the last of Derrick and Justin.


How did you come up with Chandler, the place where most of your books take place?

I always loved how Stephen King’s books were written in the same place, as if it was a place I had lived or known.   Kevin Smith had did this with his movies, again I felt as if these were people I knew and connected to.  Chandler is loosely based upon the town I grew up in, as Sweetwater the city south of it where we used to often go out to.


What is the most frequently asked question by the fans?

“Do you like writing or drawing better?”  My answer to this question is it depends on my mood.  Sometimes I feel more inclined to write and other times I am more in a disposition for drawing.  Every now and then I will bounce back and forth, which is either therapeutic or annoying to me.


What are you working on now?

Chasing after my puppy and working on training her.  Ha!  Just kidding, though sometimes I feel I do more of that than anything creative anymore.  I knew going into adopting her, writing would take a bit of a backburner for at least the next year.  Really, she is a great dog and I have gotten back to writing sooner than I thought I would be able to do.


Right now, I am working on a book I am calling TED (once it is finished, I will hopfully have a different title).   TED focuses on three guys, each dealing with individual struggles.  One of the characters is written in first person; Turner is writing in a journal about the events in his life after his counselor recommended it.   I am writing the story in layers, giving the readers an inside look to each character as the storyline unfolds. TED also focuses on serious matters such as bullying and depression, and the effects it has on not just one person, but other people's lives as well.



Thank you for your support this year of what I hope is many more to come!

Thursday, September 19, 2013

The Decisions We Make

“I heard you published a book?”  Though not the first time I’ve heard this question and I guess not the last.  Depending on the day, who is around and other factors, I respond in one of two ways.  The first several times, I was nervous, vague and tried my best to get past the question.  The second, now the more often response, is responding proudly that I have indeed published a book.  There are always follow up questions.  These I have to admit get me excited and I am eager to answer them.  Some of them are still awkward for me, such as what is your book about?  Though I have never had anyone respond negatively when I tell them, I get a little nervous as I give the answer.  Everyone seems to think that it’s good that I published a book.  About half tell me that they want to read it.  I am cool and casual when I tell them that would be great, the whole time hoping they do and they like it.

“I’m all right,” is something I have to remind myself from time to time.  As another year passes, I am reminded about how quickly life is passing us by and just how fast the days seem to go by as I grow older.   Reflecting on this past year, I am on a high note.  This time last year I was in a dark place, perhaps the lowest I have ever been.  Each day I was sinking lower and lower in my own despair until I reached a junction and had to make a choice.  I’d sunken so far and I had to make a decision to pull myself out of my funk or simply give up.  With the help of others in my life, who when I opened my eyes, I was able to see they were there, I started with one change I could make and kept on going from there.   Things did get better.  Not to say I do not have bad days, but I make it through them. 

“I cannot believe another year has gone by!”  This phrase has been going through my head this week.  It truly has been a good year.  There is a feeling of accomplishment and happiness when I think back on this year.   Cooper is vying for my attention as I am sitting down trying to write.  Although she has occupied much of my free time over the last couple of months, I am so glad that we’ve found each other.   I’ve gotten out and did things, living life, time spent with friends and family, a few trips, some accomplishments and fun.   For so many years I have dreaded getting older.  Though this year, I still plan on lying about my age (and killing anyone who tells the truth) I am looking forward to another year.

Saturday, September 14, 2013

My "642 Things to Write About" Response

An author friend of mine, Chris Waltz bought a book call 642 Things to Write About.  Chris had this idea for using the book to get himself into writing.   Moreover, he opened it up to his friends and fellow authors to volunteer to do responses of their own.  I thought that this is exactly what I have been looking for as in regards to get back into writing.

After avoiding, overthinking, forgetting and stressing I finally wrote my response to my prompt.  It is rather amusing for me to see how my recent getting into Breaking Bad had an influence on this.

The prompt I was given was, "The people who will live in your house after you move out."



“This space is perfect!”  She kept saying repeatedly from the moment the realtor began the walkthrough during the open house.  His responses varied, pointing out another something they have been looking for in a house, he found in our house.  One thing was for sure, they were not leaving without making an offer to ensure the place would be theirs.

Though we owned the place since it was built, the family and I were moving onto a bigger and better place.  Not only getting our asking price, but making the sale so fast, meant things were heading in the direction we hoped for.  The purchase of the new place would happen quicker and we would be in a newer and larger space. 

Sure, there were some sentimental feelings.  After all, we’d lived her for eighteen years.  For the youngest, my baby brother, this was most of his life.  For the oldest, my parents, a third of their existence.   In between these four walls was not only the passing of time, it was the making of many memories.   

As the packing took place, cleaning and purging out the unwanted while many stories were shared.  Thoughts of how this was going to be the last time we do this or that.  Even the slight feelings of sadness that comes with change, was overshadowed about a new beginning.  In the end, we were all too eager to care.

The new owners were thrilled and could not wait to move in.  They were as eager for us to move out as we were to move into our new place.   The day after we moved out they moved in.  Our old house was being left in safe, caring hands.   Not that it mattered, being it was no longer our house.   It was theirs.

Things I believe would have been very different if we would have known then what we know now.  Months later after the house was sold, the police would end up busting the couple as well as two others who were using the place to cook crystal meth around the clock.  The house would be toast a year later, leveled and everything, including the foundation, hauled away.  Over the next decade the woodlands adjacent to the property grown over, claiming the land, making our house a distant memory.

Words, Like Feathers Fly in the Wind

This morning I woke up thinking about the story after dreaming about it... Words, like feathers fly in the wind. Careless words, tossed about, cannot again be swallowed up.  The point of the story is rumors and gossip can be permanent and damaging.  One of the books Madonna put out some years ago was a retelling of this folklore, which was also the first time I'd ever heard the story.  It has been one of my favorites ever since.

What's odd about this being on my mind is I have not been doing any gossiping, nor have I been privy to any gossip as of recently.  It would not be a big deal to me to have this story in mind, except it is messing with my own writing.  The same writing it seemed to take me forever to get back on track again.   Oh well, this thought will pass.  It will not be the last time that a dream messes with my creativity.  Not that I would change remembering my dreams and having them stick with my head.  Through the years, I've had dreams that have brought about some great ideas for me.

This weekend I am determined to continue writing or drawing, both of which I have done a little of this week.  It feels good to be back to letting my creativity flow!

Saturday, September 7, 2013

Catching Up

Although I am supposed to be working on my new WIP, I keep finding myself getting distracted with various things I see I still need to take care of and things I want to do.  Thus the reason for this post, it fits into the both things I need and things I want column.  Cooper is chewing a bone at my feet, but seems to keep periodically coming up on my desk to see if I am in fact writing.  Believe it or not, if she sees me with my face buried in MSWord she hops down.  If I am doing anything else, she gets up in my face.  It is nice to have a dog that is supportive of my writing (for now).

Today's major task/goal was to work on writing.  My free time (or what I have taken as it) was spent reading up on the book I started a couple of months ago and deciding to go on with it or abandon it.  I have come to the conclusion that I would like to finish TED.  Though I sure hope that I am able to come up with a title better than TED, a working title that is now grinding on my nerves.  Let me not regress to burdening my mind with something so trivial.  I have ideas in my head and I still feel this book is one worth finishing and publishing.

Above is one of the new banner art projects I have been messing around with here and there when I can find the time.   There is a technique called plastic wrap, which I somehow did with the cover art for Finding Our Way, yet I have not been able to figure out how in the hell I did it.  My best guess is that it was a feature with my old scanning software that was on PC.  The same PC I finally got so irritated at not working I had it blanked to get rid of it.  For reasons I cannot explain, the PC still sits under my desk, not hooked up to anything.

Here comes Cooper... She is so cute!  Time to give her some attention and get back to work!

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Finding My Way

Although it might sound a bit cliché paraphrasing the title of my own book, it seems to sum up well what I feel I am doing.  I am not sure whether to classify it as a funk or a mood I have found myself in over the last month.  Whatever it is, I still am working on pulling myself out of it.  For some reason I have not been able to write.  There are ideas in my head, but they only seem to be bits and pieces.  Nothing I am willing to work with.  I decided that I was not going to worry about it, enjoy the rest of my summer and if I was not writing again in a couple of months, then I would worry.  Here I am a couple of months later and I am not worried.  More so knowing I need to get my priorities straight and get back to it.

This past Labor Day Weekend, I took a trip out to Ocean Shores.  Despite it being overcrowded, it was a great trip.  I was able to relax, reflect and spend some time enjoying myself.  I ended up playing four rounds of miniature golf, with my swing getting worse with each game.  Still it was a lot of fun.   I tried everything at Bennett’s that I wanted to, during multiple meals there and coming away still loving the chowder the best.  These things were the highlight of the trip.  As with last year (I went the weekend after the holiday), I have come back feeling inspired and an overwhelming urge to write.

Writing has been and still is on my mind every day.  I need to get back into it.  The book I started months back, TED, still without a real title, is what I think I need to throw myself back into writing it.  Currently it is the story in my head, unlike anything I have published or written before and something I still really want to get out there.  I need to commit myself to reading what I have written and make an honest effort to write again.  Beyond an attempt and get to writing.
In with avoiding distractions (and excuses) for not working on my new book, I am going to keep this short.  Before I close, I wanted to thank everyone who has been contacting me to see how I am and making sure I am all right.  I did not plan on being away from my blog for as long as I have been.  Keep checking back... I have some new artwork I will be putting up in the coming weeks, as well as other changes in the works to some of the pages.